Julian writes: the Tennis Player Quartet Podcast. Episode 4: The Fantastic Confabulations of an Ageing Tennis Player

Right. Yes. The Fantastic Confabulations of an Ageing Tennis Player. The fourth volume. The “finale”. The “capstone”. The one where — and I think we can all agree on this — everything finally becomes… considerably more conceptual.

Now, I’ll be honest: I’ve always felt the quartet operates less as four books and more as an ongoing atmospheric event. A sort of… tennis-adjacent weather system. There’s narrative, of course, but it’s mainly pressuremovementsudden fog, and occasionally a goat.

Anyway. Hear the podcast. Here it is. See what I did there?

(Produced by the one-and-only Julian PS with the trusty support of Mork and Mindy down in the Podcast basement. Thanks guys! You’ve been… what can I say? Immense.)

Anyway. Just in case you can’t be dealing with a podcast, here’s the story as I see it.

The early books: a man, a racket, and… an energy

So in ConfessionsCourting Lives, and The Norman Conquests, Andy is, broadly speaking, a tennis player (except he isn’t – except he is – except he’s “Lord Andrew Murray” – except he’s in trouble – except none of this is confirmed.) But what is clear is that Andy narrates everything with the swagger of a man giving a victory speech while physically losing.

He tells you he’s in command. He tells you he’s adored. He tells you it’s all going brilliantly. And the reader is expected to do the decent thing and nod politely while the walls fall in. There’s also a coach (possibly a bird), a woman who is (or isn’t) Serena Williams, and a general atmosphere of “I won that match spiritually.”

Book Four: screenplay, drones, and what I can only describe as “admin”

Then we arrive at Volume Four, which makes a bold artistic choice: it switches into screenplay format, which I assume is because Andy has finally gone professional and Netflix are now involved. That’s certainly the vibe. Suddenly there are cameras. Drones. “Monitoring.” People talking as though Andy is both a person and a piece of equipment. It’s all very modern and, frankly, quite unsettling, but in a premium way. And the important thing is: Andy is no longer narrating. Now, I’m told this is because the book is exploring “external surveillance” and “dispossession” and “care regimes” and so on. Possibly. Or possibly Andy has simply delegated the narration, as champions often do.

The “twelve years” thing (apparently significant)

There’s also an absolutely classic moment where Andy believes he’s been in a hospice for a weekend, after a minor knee injury — which sounds reasonable enough, we’ve all iced a joint and lost a fortnight – except it turns out it’s been twelve years. Twelve. Now, do I think the book is being literal here? Hard to say. This could be:

  1. a comment on memory,
  2. a comment on time,
  3. Brexit,
  4. metaphor,
  5. a typo that nobody caught in proofing,
  6. all of the above.

But the key takeaway is that Andy has missed major global events, which is either tragic or enviable, depending on your views on morning news.

Sedation: narrative editing, but with syringes

Andy’s “confabulations” (a word the book uses a lot, presumably because “lies” felt too on-the-nose) are repeatedly interrupted by Mrs Carter, who administers sedation. Now, one might interpret this as the system silencing him – his story being chemically curtailed – a bleak commentary on control and autonomy. Or, equally, one might interpret it as: Andy is simply too powerful as a narrator, and the staff have to keep him under a certain decibel level for the other residents. It’s difficult to be sure.

The mother reveal — which I confess I did not see coming, mainly because I wasn’t looking

And then — the twist — Mrs Carter is revealed to be Andy’s mother. This obviously reframes everything, and I think it’s a brave move by the author to introduce a major character relationship in book four, when the reader has already invested three volumes in not fully understanding anyone’s identity. She speaks with resentment. She speaks as though Andy is a burden. There are references to “payback” and sacrifice and so on. It’s all very human. Or, again: it could be a symbolic device representing England.

The ending: Raducanu, waived bar bills, and… closure? maybe?

Finally, Andy is greeted by young tennis stars (including Emma Raducanu), and he’s told his subs and bar bills are waived. Now this is clearly either:

  • a triumphant return,
  • a final hallucination,
  • a metaphorical absolution,
  • a fantasy sequence,
  • a customer service gesture,
  • or simply the author being kind at the end.

Personally, I read it as the universe finally recognising his greatness. Because that’s what literature does: it rewards belief.

In conclusion (and I do mean that, because I have a meeting)

So yes — the final volume “doesn’t abandon him” but “no longer belongs to him”, which I interpret to mean the narrative has matured beyond Andy and is now operating at a higher organisational level. A bit like NOP, frankly. Andy begins as the author of his own myth. He ends as a man being documented. And the quartet as a whole is a powerful reminder that tennis is rarely about tennis. It’s about identity. And paperwork. And occasionally drones.

(Can I go home now? Please? Pretty please?)

Julian writes: the Tennis Player Quartet Podcast. Episode 3: Les Conquêtes Normandes d’un Tennisman Vieillissant

Welcome, ladies, gentlemen, ball-kids and baffled bystanders, to another Julian Writes instalment — the podcast series that bravely asks: what if Roland Garros is less a tennis tournament and more a literary ambush? Alors… bienvenue, mes amis. (Nailed it.)

Today we’re going neck-deep into Les Conquêtes Normandes d’un Tennisman Vieillissant, where our “hero” — the ever-modest, entirely reliable, definitely-not-spiralling Lord Andrew Murray of Kirkintilloch — takes a polite tumble down a rabbit hole of grandeur. And who’s holding the ladder? Lewis Carroll, of course. The Red Queen practically runs the warm-up: speak in French and remember who you are — advice which Lord Andrew interprets as: become a legend immediately, preferably on clay, and preferably while hallucinating. Très chic. Très officiel. Très… oui.

We unpack the rhythmic pop-ups of the ball boys Dum and Dee (because nothing says “elite sport” like a nursery-rhyme metronome), and the moment his opponent Corentin Moutet commits the ultimate crime: he gets turned into a pig on court — a glorious little nod to Carroll’s Pig and Pepper logic, where reality is negotiable and dignity is optional. Mon Dieu. Quelle surprise. Ooh là là. (I’m fluent now, apparently.)

Then there’s the recurring “awoke with a start” motif — the book’s way of winking at us and whispering: this entire Grand Slam may be a dream-state. Letterboxes widen into walkways, tennis balls develop French accents, and the court itself starts behaving like a sentence that’s forgotten how to end. C’est n’importe quoi. Pas possible! Mais… voilà.

And just when you think it’s all pure nonsense, we drag in Jean Cocteau — that delicious phrase about being plunged back into the night — and suddenly the comedy has a bruise underneath it. Because these Carrollian fragments aren’t just playful flourishes: they’re masking something darker. A dazed, fractured consciousness. A man trying to narrate himself into glory… after a glider crash near CalaisQuel drame. C’est la vie. Je suis fatigué. (Emotionally. Spiritually. Grammatically.)

So yes — bon… on y va — come with us as we lovingly dismantle the “Greatest GOAT’s” fantasy layer by layer… until what’s left is not just satire, but a strangely poignant story of delusion, denial, and medical distress — served, naturally, with a side of French and a pig in the baseline. Bien joué, hein? D’accord, d’accord. And if any of that was wrong, look: on fait comme on peut. Voilà. À la fin!

Ready, steady…? Allons-Y!

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Julian writes: the Tennis Player Quartet Podcast. Episode 2: The Courting Lives of an Ageing Tennis Player

Episode two of our quartet campaign, and (how shall I put this?) things take a slight turn from “creaky knees and committee politics” to “arson charges and incarceration.”

Welcome to The Courting Lives of an Ageing Tennis Player, where Nick Owen doubles down on the central proposition of the series: that the human mind, when cornered by mediocrity, will build itself a private Wimbledon and move in permanently.

Our man this time is Andrew Murray—a protagonist so devoted to the fantasy of sporting greatness that he upgrades himself into “Lord Andrew Murray”, an unreliable narrator with impeccable self-belief and absolutely catastrophic life management. In his telling, he’s collecting imaginary scalps at the majors, gliding through tournaments as if destiny has a wildcard with his name on it. In reality, he’s navigating a much less glamorous circuit: legal consequence, mental unravelling, relational wreckage… and prison.

The book plays this brilliantly in a picaresque, comic-surreal mode: big, swaggering inner monologues colliding with the hard surfaces of courts, cells, and consequences. And crucially, Andrew isn’t only witnessed through his own delusions. He is tracked. Documented. Observed.

Enter Phoebe, an amateur ornithologist who records “sightings” of Andrew like he’s some endangered and baffling species – rare, volatile, and liable to appear suddenly in the wrong habitat. And alongside her: Evelyn Williams, writing letters that try (and sometimes fail) to make emotional sense of a man who is both magnetic and impossible.

What you get, in short, is a sequel that turns the dial from midlife sporting fantasy into something darker and stranger: a pataphysical journey where imagined glory keeps trying to outrun the literal bars of reality—and keeps, inevitably, running straight into them.

So: laugh, wince, and keep your belongings close. Because in Courting Lives, the line between creative imagination and psychological collapse isn’t merely thin.

It’s… being called in by the authorities.

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Julian writes: welcome to my Confessions of an Ageing Tennis Player podcast universe!

In this first episode of our four-part podcast run, we plunge headfirst into Confessions of an Ageing Tennis Player – a satirical memoir that does something both noble and dangerous: it tells the truth about what happens when an adult with a stiff back and a fragile ego joins a tennis club and decides they are, fundamentally, one good warm-up away from Wimbledon.

Our protagonist is a middle-aged amateur, heroically over-invested in the game, attempting to navigate the twin horrors of club tennis:

  • being casually dismantled by teenagers who barely break a sweat, and
  • committee politics so petty they should come with their own line judges.

And yet — and this is the point — inside his head, the story is very different. There, he’s building a magnificent ascent: a private, cinematic campaign of destiny that ends, inevitably, with Wimbledon glory. The genius of the book is how it holds these two realities together: the creaky joints, unpaid subs and damp courts versus the fever-dream triumph of the imagined centre stage.

So yes: it’s funny. But it’s also oddly tender — a sharp little critique of the English sporting psyche and that classic Walter Mitty reflex, where fantasy becomes less a lie and more a life-raft. Because sometimes the only thing standing between you and total irrelevance is the voice in your head insisting, with absolute conviction:

“Next season… I’m going on a run.”

Julian Pilkington-Sterne, Acting Head of Sporting Delusion (Podcast Division)

(Audio file generated by JPS with some assistance from Mork and Mindy down in the locker room)

And here’s the transcript! What do you think?

Transcript of Podcast

Mork
Okay — have you ever been sitting on your couch watching professional sport on TV… the World Cup, maybe Wimbledon… and you get this creeping, totally irrational suspicion that if you just got up right now, you could actually compete?

Mindy:
Oh, absolutely. Armchair-athlete syndrome.

Mork
That specific feeling that, despite the creaking knees — and the fact you haven’t run a mile since high school — you could technically take a set off Roger Federer if the stars align.

Mindy:
Yes. The Walter Mitty effect. You’re sitting there with a bag of chips, but in your head you’ve got the heart of a lion.

Mork:
Usually, that fantasy dissolves the moment you actually stand up and your ankle pops.

Mindy:
Usually. But today we’re diving into a source that doesn’t just explore that fantasy — it lives it, breathes it, and then painfully crash-lands it back into reality. We’re looking at Confessions of an Ageing Tennis Player by Nick Owen.

Mork:
And what’s delightful is that it frames itself not just as a memoir, but as a… must-go guide.

Mindy:
A guide — specifically for people who have failed. Failed to succeed on the tennis court… or, you know, anywhere else in life.

Mork:
Which is, let’s be honest, a pretty large demographic. Most sports books are about optimisation, winning mindsets, glorious triumphs. This is… not that.

Mindy:
It is not. The premise is fascinating: a narrator of a certain age — late middle age — who refuses to let go of childhood dreams. The book blends the mundane reality of local British club politics — committees, damp courts — with a fever dream of a journey where he somehow wins Wimbledon in 2013.

Mork:
So our mission today is to unpack the psychology of this amateur player: the hilarity of the delusions, the sharp satire of British club culture, and ultimately why we lie to ourselves about our own athletic prowess.

Mindy:
Sounds good. Let’s grab our rackets — preferably wooden ones — and get on court.


First set: the amateur reality

Mork:
The book calls the first set “reality”: the amateur experience. And the narrator identifies a specific enemy straight away. Not weather. Not injury.

Mindy:
Thirteen-year-olds.

Mork:
It’s a conflict many recreational athletes will recognise. The text describes the shift from what he calls benign paternalismto sheer terror.

Mindy:
Benign paternalism — I love that. As if he walks on court thinking he’s going to mentor them.

Mork:
Exactly. He’s thinking: “I’ll teach this young lad about court-craft and respect and etiquette.” But the reality is brutal. The younger generation isn’t looking for a mentor.

Mindy:
They’re looking for a straight-sets win so they can get back to their phones.

Mork:
He describes them spinning rackets like cowboys with rifles. Intimidation. And the giggling — he really hates the giggling.

Mindy:
Weaponised giggling. Nothing destroys the ego of a middle-aged man like a 13-year-old laughing while hitting a winner.

Mork:
And there’s a deeper generational clash. He expects deference — instead he gets drop-shotted while panting on the baseline.

Mindy:
That agony of the soft drop shot. It’s not even power. It’s humiliation.

Mork:
But what’s fascinating is how he copes: the internal monologue. Physically he’s losing — but mentally he is somewhere else entirely.

Mindy:
Key concept. He admits: when he’s playing, he isn’t just playing. He convinces himself he is Rafa Nadal. The grunt, the sneer… the regal Spanish wave.

Mork:
Even while losing 6–0 to a teenager.

Mindy:
Especially then. “Not only can I be Rafa… I am Rafa.” And then immediately double-faults into the net.

Mork:
Tragic — and relatable. You hit one good shot and suddenly you’re looking around for the cameras.

Mork:
He suggests the internal monologue is also a trap. It keeps you dreaming of signing autographs rather than doing the actual job: watching the ball.

Mindy:
You’re mentally spending the prize money while forgetting to hit the yellow ball over the net.

Mork:
Exactly. It makes you a worse player — maybe a happier person.

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This St. Valentine’s Day, Skip the Stove – and Cook Each Other Instead

Cordon Noir, a new anti-cookbook for couples who would rather flirt than flambé, launches just in time for St. Valentine’s Day.

As restaurants fill up and home cooks everywhere brace themselves for another stressful “romantic” meal, Cordon Noir offers a radical alternative: stop trying to impress each other with food, and start enjoying each other instead.

Playful, seductive, and quietly subversive, Cordon Noir is a book for couples who are hopeless at cooking, bored of recipes or simply more interested in intimacy than ingredients. It’s part manifesto, part relationship companion, and part mischievous gift, designed to be read together, dipped into, laughed over, and occasionally ignored in favour of more pressing pleasures.

“There’s something deeply unromantic about sweating over a hot stove while your partner waits,” says Penny Moon the book’s creator. “Cordon Noir is for people who would rather burn dinner than burn out.”

Perfect as a Valentine’s gift, a cheeky addition to the bedside table, or a knowing present for couples who already own too many cookbooks, Cordon Noir gently dismantles culinary pressure and replaces it with connection, humour, and permission.

Cordon Noir is now available through the NOP Shop and in all great independent bookshops.

This Valentine’s Day, the most important thing you can cook… is the mood.